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Grandpa Rick is a grumpy person that is occasionally nice.. occasionally..Anyway he's been working on this blog template for the about 2 days and is pretty bothered by the fact that it took him so long to remember how to use Macromedia Dreamweaver again. His help eventually came in the form of LYC his "son" and miss poutyface his mei.. With the utmost torment by lawrence to work hard, he finally was able to create this below average template with (finally!) working layers. Go ahead and have a good time reading (or laughing at) this blog and above all remember that God loves you. Grandpa Rick is in actual fact 19 (just barely) at the point of completion of this blog template (26th October 2006) having already had his birthday on the 22nd of October. Born
into a family with a father that lacks hair and a brother that has too
much of it growing on his legs, Grandpa Rick grew up traumatised by
his older brother that occasionally liked to sit on him and has a weird
fetish thing going on with anime figurines. His parents however were
a blessing to him and aside from the odd argument from time to time,
Grandpa Rick usually listens to them. He also has a poor traumatised
younger sister that is constantly the butt of his fat jokes (though
it cannot be helped seeing as to how she walks into most if not all
of them) but he tries to take good care of her.. operative word being
TRY of course. All in all poor Grandpa Rick has been traumatised by
his siblings when he was younger and now get along with them more or
less fine.. However the trauma he suffered as a child has given him
quite the quirky attitude to life. The biggest influence to his life however is God. Grandpa Rick old (or young if you want) as he is is deeply in love with God. The person that has helped him through all his troubled times and the one that has sent many a friend his direction when he needed help. God has always been there for him and Grandpa Rick is very grateful. He often gets inspired by God to write poetry (which can be found along with other things in all "All that good stuff") or songs without the lyrics in tribute of God. Grandpa Rick believes that God died to save him from all sin and believes that God is his lord and saviour. Through many close and personal encounters with God, Grandpa Rick is certain about God's love and God's plan for his life. He hopes to live in God's way and let God guide him in all that he does. Of course, Grandpa Rick is still learning and is prone to the occasional (oh alright, frequent) mistake. But the key point here is that Grandpa Rick loves God and that there is nothing that he wouldn't do for Him. Finally
it is to be said that it isnt a good thing to get Grandpa Rick angry..
you see old people dont handle anger very well and goodness knows what
happens when Grandpa Rick goes over the edge.
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This is the All that good stuff layer.. in here will be my personal top 10 or top 20 list of songs to hear.. (be very prepared for alot of punk rock) also included will be all the poetry that i have ever written almost all of which are God inspired.. just becasue God is so good to me! other things may be added i guess.. like pictures and stuff if i have the time (and if i actually do take pictures). This is an experimental layer basically where all the stuff i think about (most of them very weird.. you have officially been warned) that dont go into my post will be posted here. alright lets get started Top
20 Praise and Worship Songs (this list may and most probably will change) 20.
For This Cause Top 20 Other Songs (again list might and most probably will change) 20.
Emotionless Top
5 bands the secret link to what i really think Amusing or meaningful statements i've made or heard (statement in front source behind) "You're
gona be a what?! .. wait wait this is big shit.." - Brian "Im
a vegetarian.. but i eat chicken and fish and pork and..." - Jason
ng Poetry (expect this to be very long) Longings
of my soul My
Praise to Him my worship to God if
all you actions were your worship to God Kester's Ego Booster kester
is a ladies man though
he keeps denying that he's hot even
the other guys in church why
does he keep denying it cos
kester ur hot why dont u see? he
sucks all girls like a strong magnet i
must say that though he's short when
the street he walks down by jealous
guys from everywhere girls
will find him quite a guy of
course he'll always be the first they
love his cute manly name but
more even better is his mass appeal you'll
see his face on every wall cos
around him they all turn ape his
muscular arms that are oh so strong the
lime was not ordinary kester
kiong you are so hot and
after that mayb go out how
to reply? was what he thought but
then he thought nah im too young i'll
wait till i am much older thus
ends our tale of kester the hot i
wonder the reaction we will get Turn to Him!
Dreams these
dreams they haunt my sleep at night All He's done for me through
my darkest lonely days Use me God take
this heart O God and work Your wonders In His Name the
world is in turmoil Hurt lock
me up and throw away the key Did you know? did
you know when you're alone Purpose i
ask the reason for my birth My life Hurt
and alone The beast in my heart as
the night falls still and shadows loom |
Monday, October 13, 2008
ok i shall now perform a very last ditch attempt in order to revive this blog as well as a small part of my sanity. seeing as to how the operations have gone successfully.. at least i think they did and that now my cast is off.. i guess i can safely say that i am extremly happy that i have once again regained full use of my arms and can now type as fast as i used to with even my eyes close.. its nice to now tht some things dont really chnge even after a long absence.. hahaha but that s not really the point.. you know i've really gotten to thinking these past few days.. ok fine i always think but the fact that im writing this down means that my option for outlets for thought is somewhat limited now.. i have so got to get myself a new stress book..
but let me share with you readers (however few of you that actually bother to visit this fastapproachingdeathofablog) what i've sorta been thinking of these past few days.. on the topic of relationships.. you know what really struck me? its this..why do people seek out a relationship with other people so much (lets call this for thought process' sake the human scale) but for some arcane and unbeknownst reason reject the idea of a relationship with God on a divine scale (again lets use divine scale for thought process' sake) and i started thinking why.. would not a meaningful relationship on the divine scale be so much better seeing as to how it would be a relationship with God and therefore a seemingly blessed and perfect relationship or at the very least better than a relationship between fallen beings like ourselves? but yet why do so many of us reject even the idea of having a relationship with God and dont even give it a chance? and for those of us who do give it a chance and have experienced what a wonderful thing it is, why do we so often turn back to longing for or going after human scale relationships that we know in our hearts and in our minds are bound to lead us into a downward spiral? dont get me wrong, im not talking about relationships where the couple loves each other and work hard to make things work..but even those can go wrong no matter how hard the couple tries. neither am i against people getting together, if they like each other and stuff.. i do however have a problem with either party getting together with the other not because its a relationship they want to invest their time in but because they think it would be "fun" or because everyone is already in a relationship n so i want to be in one or any other reason except that they really care about the other person and want to get to know the person on a much deeper level.. but with respect to why people choose the human scale over the divine scale, what im talking about is this.. why is it that so many of us, having the freedom to choose i.e. being told by others, encouraged by others and so on to spend more time with God and to really just be alive in Him just refuse to and choose instead the huma scale relationship? it breaks my heart sometimes to see them going their own way and not knowing that the greatest relationship they will ever have and need is right under their noses, just that they never chose to accept it.. perhaps its the uh.. reality of it all? ok im not sure how to phrase it but perhaps its because its not something that they can see or feel physically? its not something that they can hold or something that they can lose themselves in? or at least thats what they think.. anyone who has had or has a relationship on the divine scale will know what i mean when i say that the relationship is something very real and can be grasped and can be felt, albiet nt physically but there is undoubtedly something that is very deep and meaningful in the relationship. and u know what? some people reject it because they dont think it can be as meaningful as a relationship on he human scale. and everytime i think about it and about the people in jym that i know are rejecting that relationship.. it breaks my heart so badly.. i wish i could get them to experience it, i wish i could make them feel how great it is to be in that relationship.. but thats the exact thing i cannot do.. not because of anything but because, like in all relationships. the person has to make the conscious decision and willingly go into the relationship to see why and how great it really is. being forced into a relationship, even one that is good for you, i feel is not right. because i feel that the conscious choice to go into the relationship is the one important thing that makes it last. but yet what about those who have been in a divine scale relationship but stopped for one reason or another? well i guess i can sorta relate to that as well.. because it has happened to me.. even after experiencing how great a relationship on the divine scale really is, i have drifted and i have taken my eyes off God.. now the question to be asked is why? and for me i guess it really is the distraction of everything that really goes on in our daily lives. school, exams, homework, work, army, our service in church (yes even this.. but thats another topic for another time) and especially that girl/guy that we are totally smitten by.. i guess thats the problem with us in the world, we'd much rather go for something we can physically see and touch rather than somthing that we can feel in another way? im not really sure how to put it but its like how a little kid thinks that water is more important than air because they can see and drink water but breathing comes so naturally to them? something like that..its not a very good analogy but the point im trying to put across is that water seem more impt because its something that can be drank, felt and seen but air is just there.. if there is no wind we cant feel it,we just breathe and in a sense take it for granted.. and in the same way God is always there.. and we cant see Him.. so many times we go for what can be seen, what can be heard. something like that.. it goes much deeper in my thought process but i shall spare you all the mind numbing and boring process of my thoughts. and as i said.. it has happened to me. but the thing that really breaks my heart is this.. what of those who know that they should have a relationship of a divine scale but yet choose not to.. what of these people.. which im not afraid to but it breaks my heart to say that in JYM we have quite a number.. this is not any passive agressive crap im bringing here but you all know who you are..but it breaks my heart man.. the question here is this.. what do or will you do? what can I do? the only thing i can do is pray for them and try to move them in the right direction.. i wish there was more i could do though.. but ultimately i cant make them choose that relationship, the most i can do is pray, and take an interest in their lives let them see what God is doing through me. the one thing that this whole thought process has led me to is this.. will i really be happy with anything other than a divine scale relationship? or to put it in a better way.. why am i looking for anything other than a divine scale relationship? will getting together with the girl i like really make me happy? will it really bring me happiness? i highly doubt so.. dont get me wrong.. i have nothing against getting into a relationship provided God tells me that the girl is for me.. after going through two very bad breakups i dont think i want another relationship that is not God centered. that being said, it doesnt mean and doesnt stop me frm liking someone now does it? of course it doesnt.. but at the risk of repeating myself, gettin together with that girl will not really make me happy now will it? besides, if i were to get together wit that girl knowing that God does not have her planned for me, i know that it can only end one way.. a break up where both sides get hurt.. now is that what i wish upon her? most definately not.. also, all the quarrels and all the stuff that we wld have to go through that will leave us even more bitter and all the pain that will come out of it.. i definately dont want that.. not for her anyway.. i'd much rather stay as a close friend to her than lose her friendship because of this.. bottom line is that i wont get into a relationship until God tells me to because its for the best.. and if i say i like this girl then i really shouldn't get into a relationship with her knowing that it will not work out.. haha not that i actually have a chance to get together with that girl in the first place anyway.. she doesn know i like her.. but thats besides the point.. im saying IF the situation ever arises i'll know what to do.. haha easy to say now.. we'll just see what happens IF it ever occurs.. haha well this ends my thought process on this issue.. and thus the beginning of the revival of my blog.. i hope |
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